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Hi Flora. What I mean when I say "be who people need you to be", I mean I need to be this strong,responsible person. I am a nurse and a team leader where I work and care for 32 residents of the nursing home I work for plus I have to be responsible for my staff who work with me. I need to be SO many things for everyone..............
Why is being who we want to be not as acceptable? For us it can be a catch 22-We have tried very hard to create this perception of us in the eyes of the people we deal with on a daily basis and have been very successful in doing this. (which I think is a good thing) BUT when we are struggling and it feels like everything is falling apart it is hard to maintain that and we wish we could just waiver from that but we can't. Fear of being judged or labelled as crazy is a big one for us. We can't handle people's views of us changing in a negative way-not sure why though.........I try to tell myself that I just don't care about what people think but that is so far from true. It is like that is how maintain our self worth through how other people see me-if they see us in bad light then that must mean we are bad but if they see a great person then we are doing something right.
Any ways that is what I mean by saying it is time to be who people need us to be............

mosaic-sorry you feel that way every morning.

The people-We used to feel that way when we were off work for a few days like the walls were closing in around us and we needed to get out or go back to work. We would start to go stir crazy. That feeling has been lost somewhere and haven't felt like that in awhile. Now if we had a choice to go out or stay in, we would most definitely chose to stay within these walls not sure why that has been one of the things that has changed so much.
TW