Having difficulty figuring this one out....

[Unity]

Another example of this is another girl i knew via a spiritual forum, she has been victim of a kidnapping, maybe she had some kind of dissociation too, and at some point on the forum she posted a thread about a girl she saw on tv being kidnapped, and she had this same kind of huge reaction, i saw someone was like 'well that happen all the  time', exactly like the friend of the girl on the chat told 'well she does that all the time', i had the impression i was the only one to understand the kind of things she was going through, probably seeing this girl being kidnapped flashed some of her memories, i said something like leave her alone she has the right to cry or something, but i never saw her in such kind of state before, she looked totally deseperate about this issue, and nobody was getting why she was so moved by it.

I didn't really understood what was going on, but i saw all her survival mecanism triggered she was going to blast everyone on the forum who didn't care about it, full rampage, this i know well, and i knew that she needed to be reassured and not feeling threatened or anything, i know a bit how to deal with people in that state for that they calm down and defuse this survival reaction etc but her reaction looked totally weird for anyone who didn't know the context. I told her i was sometime crying alone at night too with a picture of a wolf crying at night, it calmed her she didn't answer back.

This girl is also one of the only person of forum who understood a bit what i have been going through with the  schizo girl on the chat, like total flashing of memory regarding a real life situation of a threat to another person similar to me , it  made me so mad in the exact same fashion than her lol

I felt a bit this kind of connection with this girl on the spiritual forum too, but were like instinctively mutually keeping at bay of each other for some reason, but when i had my bad trip with the girl on the chat, i also realized why i felt connected to her in that manner too, and i felt so sad for her too, but she said something like 'well you see i've been through this too i'm still there, i survived, but i saw it was making her laugth a little that i had this same bad trip she had and i didn't understand anything at what was going on. It was so weird this thing.

It was weird with this girl on the spiritual forum because we went to same strange things exactly at the same period of time without understanding anything at what was going on, it was funny lol

I can tell you in these moment there is no more 'i am not a victim' ar ar