So overwhelmed may b MT

[The People]

Today after church there was a presentation on things like personal directives and other issues that people need to think about as they get older. Not just a will but health directives.

I am so depressed now. Who would I name as the person to make my decisions for me should that be needed? Nobody. I no longer feel close to the people who were plan A. We barely talk and they don't even know who I am or what I struggle with. Never call. I get a text on occasion and that is it.

Then there is the financial aspect of things where the woman I spoke with actually suggested that I declare bankruptcy. I really got into debt when I moved to the city. Between paying for T, getting sick and living multiple I have too much debt. People who are working might not consider it to be enormous but unless I win the lottery I will never get it paid off. I feel so ashamed re how my life has turned out. It is as if all of the effort I made to get away from FOO and create a good life for myself simply cannonballed me into a mud puddle that is so deep I cannot get out.