I am so angry at T

[Tangled Web]

I am so pissed off and need to vent.
My T was talking with one of the others and telling her some good things.........or so I thought! Well they were good things I guess but you know what I don't want to think rationally right now!
She said it would good to write about happened to her so I let her write. She said it would be good to scream into a pillow to get it out-to feel the feelings so I let her do that too.........That was when all hell broke loose. Somehow I get sucked into her memory and felt absolutely every f*ck*ng thing that happened to her happen to me.
My T told me that I didn't need to know all specifics of what happened and it was fine that I didn't want to know or want to see so I believed her. I let her talk, I left and just let her have the session with our buffer there of course-and it was hard but it was done and it seemed to work where I wasn't too affected by it. I was like ok this could work. I was feeling pretty good about the session actually even though it was very hard on her. And then I thought ok if my T was right was about this then maybe she will be right about the other things too so I trusted her with her suggestions and I was a bloody fool to think she knew what she was talking about!
Never in my whole entire life have I EVER experienced anything like that!
Of course my T apologizes because she didn't know I would be affected like that.........and I am sure she didn't BUT WHY? Why didn't she know??????????????Then I feel bad for being angry with her because I do believe she really didn't know and then that pisses me off too because I just feel so angry with her!
I feel so f*ck*n' naïve and stupid. I trusted her that is on me! I am so angry with her. completely 100% pissed right off!
And then to makes things worse I have people inside saying see I told ya so! And I end feeling like I have defend her which pisses me off even more because I just want to be angry with her!
Thanks for listening