Giving up

[Tangled Web]

Hi Lisa. I was at this same spot just a couple of days ago. It is very hard especially when you don't see hope.
We have also started talking about trauma and it helps to go slow. I was ready to quit and throw in the towel. I convinced myself that how I am living now is much better than what was happening to me when the talking started. I sat in that place for awhile and just let myself quit. I guess for me knowing that there will always be a choice and it is my choice to make helps in some way.
But then it passed and I got back up and could think about going through it instead of running from it. To be honest the pause button is still on it because it is so hard.
But I do believe you have the strength and strength to do this is in ALL of us.......it is just finding out how to access it.
I have certain phrases or words that help me-like inspirational things. I don't know if this will work for you or not but it helps us.
I am sorry you are going through this and sending you blue flowers.
Tangled