My Own Worst Enemy?

[MakersDozn]

Thanks, nats. Frustration is a good word.

Someone on another forum asked if there were safe situations where the others could possibly come out. I said that maybe there are, but it feels like we have to always be on guard around other people.

So Allegra's saying that we could start by letting these insiders come out when we're alone. Where am I supposed to go while they're around? I have no interest in being around them, and I can't easily go inside. I'm so conditioned to believing that I *have* to be out that I just can't disappear.

Catch-22. My feelings are my feelings, and I don't want to feel like these feelings are being invalidated. I'm not saying that anyone here is doing this, but I'm tired of being the one that has to give in, that has to change. It's somebody else's turn.

Laura and others