Patterns

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I'm back. Not satisfied with my verbal progress in this matter. Also having difficulty with computer speed/connection, and ability of puter to copy and paste has become questionable. Be that as it may, I've returned to write some of what I've realized.

Yes, I've realized certain patterns in my life which have exploded in recent years, such that my existence is not as safe as it should be. In spite of my efforts, there has been utter failure, especially as regards medical care. On the other hand, much, if not all of that, is due to changes in the ways humanity is conducting its business.
The healthcare in this country is in a shambles, with conflicts of interest all over the place, sloppy science, what I call a combination of denial and rationalization that has occurred to now-powerless docs. I, who function best with docs who function independently of rigid numbers, etc., am now without care, any care. I'd rather see a veterinarian.
I also have a history of serious ab*s* by medical personnel. That arose again thru no fault of my own. I left those arenas. So, this example of patterns in my life seems to be coincident with a deterioration of societal standards, that I regard as a crisis state. To restate, in this department I have a body and energy that require a different kind of treatment, and it is ceasing to exist, with life becoming more chaotic very rapidly. I'm glad I can see that fine line between these patterns, and what I seem to have been born with. To me, the above is pretty straightforward, if unfortunate.

I'm going to post this part now, as I'm not sure that it will record if I continue to work on part 2.
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