Happy Birthday....Not.

[MakersDozn]

Today is the body's birthday. We are feeling very alone. We live alone and choose to be alone, but then we feel isolated in having to deal with all the stress in our life. The last five years have been extremely difficult.

Our father got sick in the spring of 2010. We had to help take care of him until he passed at the end of September 2014. We did not live with him, but we spent considerable time and physical, mental, and emotional energy helping to take care of him. Now that he is gone, we feel a tremendous sense of loss.

One of our two brothers ("B2") has special needs. He lived with our father, a short distance from us. We have another brother ("B1") who is married and has two teenage daughters. They live four hours away. B2 is self-supporting but has been sheltered from many things in life. Now he has to get re-situated. The house has to be cleaned out and sold, and B2 has to find an apartment. He is clueless in a number of ways regarding how to function independently, so we and B1 are left having to guide him on a step-by-step basis, *in addition* to dealing with the estate and such.

We/MDs are feeling very resentful. We didn't sign up for this. There's a reason we never married or had outside kids. We have enough to deal with by ourselves: Having to work when we hate working; dealing with system issues; dealing with therapy; dealing with depression and anxiety and CPTSD; dealing with mundane day-to-day things.

Enough already.

Happy birthday? NOT.

Various MDs