How does one keep believing

[The People]

This is more a rant than an expectation of or desire for an answer. But how does one keep believing? Two argues with God every night. A friend who has a good heart but not.. our way of thinking promises better things in the here after but that is not what we need to hear or even sure that we believe, We are told that if we talk to God things will get better. For 53 years we have tried that. Nothing.

A friend has had a year that would have a weaker person on major drugs. She just rolls with the flow on the outside but inside her body berates her. She is off on a long trip due to yet more family issues. She believes in God. She is a much better person than I am. But things keep happening to her and her family.

I don't get it. I don't get how I am supposed to believe.

Then I berate myself. They say you have to believe for things to happen. For God to listen. Maybe bad things happen because I don't believe. Maybe my friend has her doubts because of what her mother went through before she died.

Nobody has answers. Including God.