Another day of struggling

[Cammy]

It all goes on: Being overdosed on thyroid medication led to severe anxiety/panic, leasing to 2 months of high dose Lorazepam, leading to needing withdrawal from Lorazepam by crossing over to Valium, leading to taking months of Valium at slowly reducing doses to safely taper off of the Valium. The high anxiety from the thyroid o.d. led to severe gastritis, bone density loss, immune system compromise and a nasty case of thrush refractory to all traditional meds. So now I'm tapering the Valium, fighting the thrush with special probiotics that give me migraines, treating the gastritis, have Candida 'die off flu', delightful withdrawal symptoms, and am looking forward to months of Valium post-taper withdrawal symptoms. Oddly enough, I'm okay about all this because I feel like I'm in control and really DOING something about all of this. It gives me focus and purpose and goals, and there have been improvements, though slight, but improvements none the less. Lots of sliding backwards at times, but I don't get discouraged, I plod on. Every day brings new lessons. It's a little thing called life.