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Want to leave - Twin Volition - 03-13-2014, 07:20 PM
RE: Want to leave - Tangled Web - 03-13-2014, 08:49 PM
RE: Want to leave - nats - 03-14-2014, 04:48 AM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-14-2014, 04:59 PM
RE: Want to leave - nats - 03-16-2014, 05:44 PM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-16-2014, 07:35 PM
RE: Want to leave - The Warren - 03-16-2014, 09:16 PM
RE: Want to leave - The People - 03-15-2014, 04:57 AM
RE: Want to leave - Twin Volition - 03-15-2014, 04:34 PM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-15-2014, 06:52 PM
RE: Want to leave - Twin Volition - 03-17-2014, 06:06 AM
RE: Want to leave - nats - 03-17-2014, 09:53 AM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-18-2014, 07:43 PM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-15-2014, 06:59 PM
RE: Want to leave - The Warren - 03-15-2014, 11:46 PM
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I don't feel like our family has accepted or respected me as a human being. I want to go back inside. And I want to never come out. It's not fair that I have to deal with them. Some of them might care about me, but only as a sick dog, and not as a real person with real feelings and real problems.

Arlen is coddled but I am secretly hated and/or disregarded by everyone. My times consist only of others waiting for Arlen to come back and it's making me feel very unwanted and resentful. I used to be a very calm person - very "jai-yen" as the Thai would say. But now I hate and kick and scream on the inside because people are being invalidating to me.

All this, and yet the only desire I feel is not to insult people or complain or act indignant - but to apologize for existing. To go back inside and not come out. I feel I am a walking dishonor, to our family and to Arlen. I feel I've exhausted my purpose in life, but in the end, it's not possible or right for anyone to just disappear. "Stuck" is how we feel. I want to go see someone to get our lives in motion again, but we are "stuck" in the American South. No one here wants to just talk. All anyone wants to do is lock us away - make us more stuck.

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Messages In This Thread
Want to leave - Twin Volition - 03-13-2014, 07:20 PM
RE: Want to leave - Tangled Web - 03-13-2014, 08:49 PM
RE: Want to leave - nats - 03-14-2014, 04:48 AM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-14-2014, 04:59 PM
RE: Want to leave - nats - 03-16-2014, 05:44 PM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-16-2014, 07:35 PM
RE: Want to leave - The Warren - 03-16-2014, 09:16 PM
RE: Want to leave - The People - 03-15-2014, 04:57 AM
RE: Want to leave - Twin Volition - 03-15-2014, 04:34 PM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-15-2014, 06:52 PM
RE: Want to leave - Twin Volition - 03-17-2014, 06:06 AM
RE: Want to leave - nats - 03-17-2014, 09:53 AM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-18-2014, 07:43 PM
RE: Want to leave - MakersDozn - 03-15-2014, 06:59 PM
RE: Want to leave - The Warren - 03-15-2014, 11:46 PM

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